It’s the most hated feeling in the world.. well that’s mine. I’d rather be told the worse than to let me expect something that will fail. I can be uptight at times and it’s hard for me to accept failure. I guess I’ve suffered and still suffering for the things I failed to do in the past. 

I do pray and hope for wonderful things but sometimes, it scares me when I cannot grasp the realistic level of what seems to be the thoughts I’ve been keeping. It sucks to count on people you cannot lean on your worst times. But then I should remember that it’s  my loner self that made me stronger in this life. Alone in life but at peace and there are not much disappointments.